Gratitude journal # 4

 I am grateful that after two hours this morning, I have a new plan for how J can record videos he wants, have a camera for this purpose, and watch his YouTube channel without the undesired connection between posting videos on said channel. Everyone was safe last night even though there was lots of emotional pain all around and physical pain on my part. He also got is nails trimmed which I advised were a weapon and Tuesday and was not believed. 

A is still sleeping. He needs more than the time before school allows, but hopefully waking up to the digital copy of the new book he wanted will be some consolation. 

I am also grateful that I found this adorable kids movie - Thomas & Friends:The Christmas Letter Express. It’s giving all that’s cute, innocent, and lost at the moment. 

Gratitude journal #3

10.1.25

Lots to be grateful today. 

I'm grateful that despite a yelling and screaming meltdown in the middle of the night, no one or thing came to any harm. 

I am grateful that we are meeting with a new psychologist today, as well as have a checkin call with the psychiatrist. 

I am grateful the computer I am writing on did not break when J threw it on the ground last night. 

A made it to school close to on time and was excited to go because of STEM. 

J is still sleeping and will hopefully catch up on missing sleep. I do not know whether he was truly up so late because he couldn't find the cat whom he takes to bed, doctor anxiety, or what. It generally wraps up into him being far more rigid and is getting "stuck" in his head. This may be worsened due to stress, hormones, or the seeming easy answer that he has too much electronic time. We are seeking a variety of professional help, but I am concerned that the "easy" answer with either hurt him more or the more complex reasons behind it will be missed. Despite popular opinion, I lived with a book in my face as a child and play hours of video games. Many others lived in front of televisions. Those are (now) considered better options by many. To me, it's the same thing, just with different tech. J jumps on his trampoline, practices golf in the yard, cuddles with his cat, as well as divides his time between his 3-4 electronic interests. Definitely more than I and some of my peers who only had books in our hands did, I bet. 

To be continued.....